alone.
that's how i'm starting to feel. why my college begins in september...? yeahhh.. i have no clue. it sounds nice to start late, but honestly the only thing coming from it is feeling lonely. i feel like i'm constantly saying goodbye to someone. i hate it. everyone is moving forward in their life and i'm just stuck on pause... waiting. i see everyone starting up their new lives and hearing all about it and i just wish i could be going through the same thing with them. not a month later? i guess patience really is a virtue. i'm very lucky to still have 2 of my best friends still here. but then they leave this week. i guess the weirdest thing about it all is that home doesn't feel like home since everyone's gone. i miss them. i miss the way things used to be. i haven't even started my new life and i'm already missing my old one?
i think one of the weirdest things about leaving high school is not seeing your friends. yes, you see your good friends a lot. but those people you're friends with in class but never really hang out with? or the ones that you just say hi to every now and then. i miss seeing those people. the last time i saw half those people was graduation. everyone is going in a new direction. none of them are the same. in high school we all had to take required classes with mostly the same teachers and classmates. college is a whole different ball game. i miss my friends. i miss my best friends. i miss boyfriend.
they say distance makes the heart grow fonder. yes, that may be true.. but no one ever said it would be so lonely.
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