>freed.

i currently feel really blessed. 2013 hasn't been the greatest year for me. it's been filled with a lot of trials and hardships. and with those trials has come a lot of anger and bitterness. it's interesting because what i study and love is peace. and yet i've really been struggling to show and exemplify those traits. and this past week i was finally able to let go of a huge load of that anger. the emotion is truly freeing. i feel freed. freed from every emotion i've felt over the last 5 months. a thousand pounds have been lifted off my back. and now i finally feel like i can be happy. 

i look back to the beginning of the year and think about how many nights i so desperately wished i could see into the future and understand why my situation was the way it was at the time. i wished so desperately that i could see just a small glimpse into the future because then at least i could gain some peace of knowing that everything would work out. but since i don't have some magic crystal ball, i had to rely my faith into the future on the Lord. and while i've definitely had to learn a tough lesson of living by faith rather than fear, i'm grateful because all the dots are finally connecting. it's all starting to make sense. 5 months of pain was awful. but i'm grateful because i know that things will work out how they're supposed to. and i have full confidence, hope, and faith in that.

there's still a lot to come in 2013 and i'm excited to make the most of it.

with warmth & love,

lo