wow. it's almost here. it's right around the corner. i can't even believe it. i don't really have many words to say cause it's just so surreal. tomorrow is my last day in east cobb. the last day in georgia. the last time i have a room to my self. the last time i sleep in my big bed. the last time i'm home. the last time i get to see my sweet dogs face every day. the last time i'm in the same time zone as all my friends. the last time i'm in driving distance of everyone. the list goes on and on...
i'm scared. more like terrified. i don't want to leave. i don't want change. i hate change. but i know i need to. i know i belong there. i know it will be worth it. i know i can do it. i just wish it didn't have to be so hard.
tomorrow is my last day in georgia until december 17th. i'm trying so hard to stay positive and enjoy these last moments and cherish these last memories. it's just so incredibly hard since i spend all my time alone thinking about everything. i don't know how i can still cry? i've cried so much this month ha. i hate having this huge pit in my stomach. i don't know how i'm going to do it. i don't know how i am physically going to say goodbye to the ones i love and step on that airplane. i'm gonna need someone to physically push me because i don't think i can do it alone.
i know that while i'm there the time will fly by. well at least i'm hoping it will ha. and i know i'll make so many great memories. it's just that i already have so many great memories here. i don't want to make new friends. i like the ones i have now.
it's gonna be tough. but i'm going to try really hard to embrace the change instead of trying to avoid it. i'm just going to need some help because i can't do it alone.
"i don't wanna go, but i know i gotta go."
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