i'm sitting here with a million thoughts scrambling through my head. yet, as my hands lay on the keyboard i'm at a loss for what to write. i guess i'm trying to find some clarity.
clarity clar·i·ty [klar-i-tee] noun: clearness or lucidity as to perception or understanding; freedom from indistinctness or ambiguity.
i love that definition. freedom from indistinctness or ambiguity. i need that freedom. i need to understand. but in life things aren't always crystal clear. and when things are a little foggy, or blurred, i think that's where we turn to God. because i believe he is the only one that can clarify anything. after all, isn't he the one that knows all?
so i've been trying to get some clarity. but it's probably the most confusing thing. it's just like when it rains and you're driving in your car. when you look out the window everything is blurred. you can halfway see what is out there. but it's not entirely clear. but when we use our windshield wipers, it can become clear again. weird connection i know, but stay with me on this. well it's our choice on whether or not we use our windshield wipers right? they are always there for us, and we decide when to use them. i think it's the same way with God. he is always there for us. but we are the ones that decide when to use him. i think a lot of the times though we come to him during trials. but it shouldn't be that way. we should always have him apart of our lives and always turn to him. yes, i know we shouldn't use our windshield wipers on a perfectly sunny day haha. but i think you guys know what i'm trying to say here.
so right now things are a little blurred on my window. i'm trying really hard to stay strong but i'm desperately searching for some clarity.
some peace of mind.
some understanding.
some freedom from all this.
some hope.
Psalm 34:18
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