quick update.
i successfully finished my first year of college in hawaii. learned a lot. not so much in school, but rather life, myself, and the important stuff.
now i'm back is cozy georgia for the summer and as much as i missed hawaii when i left, i've gotten very accustomed to and loving every second of my queen sized bed, air conditioned home, and home made meals from my lovely mom whom i might add does the grocery shopping. talk about the life.
lately i've been wanting to write again and so you'll probably see a lot more blogging from me. having more time to yourself makes ya think. and i've been thinking a lot about what i want to do with my life.
*warning: ranting of my thoughts*
i know i probably think about it too much. one day i feel like i'm still a kid and i need to soak it in. other days i feel so freaking old and that i'm behind on doing great things.
at this moment though i'm struggling to figure out exactly what i want to do. yeah i have passions. but not just one passion. i look at my friends.
one is majoring in sport and entertainment management. he's works in two college athletic departments. he's worked for espn. the sec championship. and all major sec games whether on the field at a football game, or in the pressbox at the baseball stadium. he's already got so many connections and doing so many great things.
one is majoring in music. she's flying around auditioning for schools. she spends evenings working with her vocal teacher (the same one as drake's i might add). she's spends late nights in the studio recording. she's already got a song that is currently in my itunes library. she's on her way to making her dreams come true.
one has created a national holiday, celebrate positive.
one has created amazing youtube videos that touch millions of people.
one is on her way to becoming a fashion designer in new york and is interning for ralph lauren.
one is playing baseball at an major sec school.
one is a contestant on so you think you can dance.
some of these people are my best of friends. others just friends. others i've only talked to once. but these are the people around me. all doing amazing things.
i want to do something amazing. i want to change someones life for the better. i want to do something to help the world. i feel like i'm not doing any of that right now and it's really bugging me.
i want to paint something pretty to hang in the hospital rooms of sick patients in need of some hope.
i want to take pictures of all sorts of people. i want people to look at those pictures and smile at those memories forever.
i want to design and sew clothes that bring confidence to the person wearing them.
i want to write a book that leaves a person so enchanted that they can't wait to turn the page.
i want to build a dog shelter called Tucker's so that dogs can have a place to be loved and adopted instead of sent to the pound.
i want to sing my own songs with words that relate, connect, and move someone.
i want to plan and assemble events for the american cancer society and relay for life to raise money for cancer research.
i want to make a difference.
there's just so much i want to do that i'm having a hard time focusing all my efforts into just one of them. so right now i kind of feel stuck and behind.
i want to do something.
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