hello testing center.

as i'm sitting here in the library, trying to study for my final exams, i cannot stop thinking about how much i am dreading going to the testing center tonight...

here at byuh we have a testing center. teachers submit their tests to this place and then the students can go into the center anytime during the day and take it. sometimes teachers give you a span of three days, so you just have to go sometime before it closes. well, outside of the testing center there is a computer screen that displays your scantron grade immediately after you take your test. it shows all the students' ID numbers, then their grade, and then... if you are ever so lucky and you score an A... it will say on the side something along the lines of:

great job!

fantastic!

awesome!

now when you're standing outside looking at this tiny screen with strangers passing by you, and you see that glorified statement that you did fantastic on your test, that's just gotta make you feel like a million bucks that even the computer congratulated you! 

now, unfortunately i have never received an A on any of the tests i've taken in the testing center... sad day. 

and so badly do i want to walk outside and have that feeling of accomplishment that i did a great job. but tonight is my last shot. my other finals aren't being held in the testing center so this is the last chance i have before next year to gain that feeling of accomplishment. really though, why can't i get a "good effort!" if i get a B? or a "better luck next time!" when it's a C? i'd even settle for an "at least you tried your best!" for the commonly received D's and F's i got in my stats class last semester. but nope. you either get an A and are fan-flippin-tastic, or you don't get an A and you're nothing...

yes. i know where my priorities are. i care more about the computers sense of approval than mine own. 

it's cool. 

wish me luck friends.