hello now.

took a look at the calendar today... i come home so soon.

april 8th i'll be on a flight home.

for f i v e months.

it's weird to think that this semester is almost over. my first year of college is almost over. 

time seriously has flown by. and i can't really decide if i'm happy or sad about it?

i was beyond ready to come home for winter break. but this semester has been different. and i'm not so ready to say goodbye to this wonderful island for such a long time. i know i'll be back in september, but that's still such a long time. 

obviously i'm excited to see my family and friends.

but i don't really feel like i belong in georgia anymore. 

now this is just me rambling aloud here, but i feel like i've changed a lot since i moved out here. i've realized a lot. a lot about myself. a lot about other people. a lot about the world. and i feel like i was somewhat sheltered from it all my whole life. not necessarily sheltered in a bad way though. i've learned so many valuable lessons from being here. going back in some ways makes me feel like i'd be taking a step backwards instead of a step forward. or maybe a step forward instead of a step backwards?

but this is all just my random thoughts. 

i know i'll be happy to be home. but i'm also happy to know that i've grown up a lot. i knew there was a reason that i was supposed to go out here for school. and honestly, i was really discouraged all last semester because i couldn't figure it out. i didn't like it. and this semester started off the same way. i started questioning if this really was the right decision for me? and with less than three weeks left of living in this wonderful place, i can confidently say i know hawaii was the right decision for me.

i hate growing up. i hate changes. i hate the uncertainty of the future.

but at the same time, 

i love it.

L