love. hate. happiness. sad. depressed. weird. joyful. jealous. sneaky. angry. ecstatic. furious.
and the list goes on and on.
feelings we all have experienced throughout our life. sometimes even all in one day.
we all have a right to feel and release our emotions in different ways. but it doesn't mean that the other people are always going to like it. but we have that right simply by living & breathing.
now, i'm not saying that exactly makes any of us pretty when some of those emotions come out. i think two of the most unattractive emotions are jealousy & hatred. similar in so many ways. but also so far apart. it's interesting how those emotions can simply bring out the nasty in a sweet person. it's ugly. so how does a person deal with it then? because jealousy normally occurs because it forms from love. ironic? so do you just stop loving? do you learn to take out that anger in other ways? or do you just release the ugly side of you?
now back to hatred.
i think it was sophomore year for me when i realized that i stopped caring. not about people. but about what other people thought of me. i realized that i wanted to start caring more about my character than my reputation. because my character is who i am, and my reputation is what others think of me.
so i focussed more on my character. i figured out who i wanted to be. i wanted to be nice. i realized that it really isn't hard at all to be kind to other people. so i made a goal to meet lots of new people and show simple acts of kindness whenever i could.
now i'm not by any means perfect. i know i'm not always nice. but i like myself & my character better when i am. so i don't understand why some people are just mean? there's no need for it. i feel like i've always been open minded to giving people 2nd and 3rd chances. but what's the point? if the other person is just going to be mean? i guess there are just some people in your life that you won't ever get along with, and that's okay. but i still don't understand the need to go out of your way to not like someone? seriously. i would never wish upon someone a unhappy life. it's a lot harder to hate someone than to like someone. so if there's a person like that in your life, then i suggest that you try and wave that flag of peace. but ya know what... if they aren't going to wave that flag in return, then they aren't worth being in your life anyways, and you are way better off without them. no one wants to carry around an ugly accessory.
"love sees sharply, hatred sees even more sharp, but jealousy sees the sharpest for it is love and hate at the same time."
just some random thoughts from me, to you.
L
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