wonderful.
i just took a little trip back in time with neelam and brittany. where did we go, you may ask?
my backyard.
when i was 12, my best friends (neelam, kayla, and kyrie) and i were at a sleepover at my house. we decided it would be fun to make a time capsule. but kayla and kyrie were lame and fell asleep. so me and neelam made one. we decided we would unburry it right before we started high school. it was very simple. we wrote notes about our interests. so pretty much my letters looked like this:
"i want to be famous when i grow up!!!! the avenue roxs!! american idol is my favorite show ever! fav actress: lindsey lohan. fav animal: dog."
you think i'm kidding? this is no joke. i wrote more but those were some of my favorites. i especially like how i wrote that i love dogs. some things never change (: oh and i might add that i signed everything "Lauren Bergaust *Mwah* xoxo *kiss*"
seriously... i was so cool when i was 12.
so after neelam and i unburied it and read that note, we decided to do it again and dig it back up right before senior year.
this letter was better, but still embarrassing. i have to say my favorite line in the entire thing is "neelam isn't a slut anymore and things are good! (:"
i also wrote about how i wanted to go to byu utah. weird how things can change from freshman year.
well brittany was there when we unburied it this time, so when we decided to write new ones, she joined in.
we wrote new ones last summer and said we would dig it up after we graduated. well the time has come and tonight we did. seeing how this letter was only a year old, it wasn't very embarrassing. thank goodness.
it was weird reading what i wrote about the boyfriend, mainly because it's when we first started dating. well, lets just say things turned out well (:
it's really interesting to see how much can change in one year. i think for me, the biggest thing that changed were the people that i hung out with. it's not always a bad thing to meet new people and build better relationships with other people. but at the same time, looking back on that letter makes me really miss those friends. i'm glad we opened up our time capsule now because there is still time left before i leave, and i really want to try and mend those friendships back together. those people were my life. my best friends. they helped me through a lot. you can't erase the past. and no matter what, i'll always remember them being there for me through some difficult times. so if you're reading this, i'm sure you know who you are. it's not just one person, but it's a few. i just want you to know that i haven't forgotten. and even though we've drifted a lot, i still think of you as being an amazing best friend. and i'll always be here for you. i promise. love you guys (:
another thing that was cool to read was i wrote "my main belief is to live strong. times get really hard and sometimes that's the only thing you can do. i hope i influence someone next year and that i can be a good example to them."
after reading that i thought, 'great.. ha. didn't happen.' but then neelam & britt both said how they think i definitely accomplished that with miss panache, and sharing my story. well i hope that i did. we raised over $4,500 for cancer research and now lots of people can get the help they need to continue living. but also, the point of my talking about something so personal that night wasn't to make everyone cry (even though that seemed to happen anyways.. ha). my point was for people to realize that they need to soak in every second of life. don't take it for granted. be grateful. and give back. we get too caught up in the latest drama of high school and sometimes forget what matters the most. that's one thing i've definitely learned over the years. stay true to who you are and love openly. and if i was able to influence anybody about that point, even if it lasted only a day, i'm satisfied. (:
*muah*
*kiss*
xoxo
lo
